Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Know what? I think of the same way to know about the past but actually it didn't work and it make me abit pissed off... She think she really that pretty that guys want to know her... Diao... I did it just because I wanted to know the past... But actually she make me realise that I'm still surround myself in the past happening... I always know I have not put down as in I still want to know the truth, the real true but I couldn't find the right way or even the person to tell me... The only 2 person who know is herself and the bf... I couldn't get what I want from him and the only hope is to know from her but end up, its impossible...
I should not let the unhappy past stay with me so long right? I should just let it go, let it go right? But why is it so hard? I don't quite understand myself and the things sometime I do... Anyway I also don't know what to do liao... Maybe just let it be ba... It will take me a very very long time to forget it or heal up the wound... Maybe it will be there forever? I don't know...
I manage to know quite alot of things from him and it seems that he really treat me like his big sister and share his personal things with me but today I sudeenly feel abit bad cause I lie but only to certain extend... I still treat him as a small brother, sincerely... Not wanting to break them up, instead I felt that sometime I'm helping him to think on her side... I have the urge to tell him the true who I am but afraid to lose a friend...
By the way last saturday 2 August meet up with darling to go cinelesiure watch Mummy 3... Went there wanted to help Jie buy things but end up she already brought it so we just walk around Far East. Darling wanted to drink green tea end up we eat ice cream... Hahaha... Then walk to Cineleisure to walk walk and watch movie... After movie went to Marina square to search for cardigan(don't know correct spelling anot) but end up didn't found instead we saw Xu zhi, his friend and a gal... OMG know how he intro us to the gal... "This is my brother, Sufyan. This is Sumei, my sister-in-law..." I was like "DIAO" then after walk off, I told darling aiyo why he intro me like this "Sister-in-law"... Then after that home sweet home...
with loves; PiGlEt OnG KeLiNe...
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