Sharon,

I know you wanted to know about everything and its hard to forget everything about our past... Like I said, past is already the past whats the point of knowing it... I understand your feeling and what you are thinking... Sometime I do want to know about things that I didn't know... I know its partly because of sufyan fault for making the decision by thinking he should not hurt you anymore because he make you cried infront of others... I think both of us just won't know at that time how he felt and why he make the decision... I think I'm at fault too... I somehow think that I'm selfish if I stop him from beinging with you or beinging with him after you 2 break...

I know you do keep the email but I dunno whats the things that is happening in ur head... And I seriouly dunno what is bothering you... I didn't want to tell you the reason is partly because I really forget and I also dun wan to hurt you... Dont you think its enough? Maybe I shouldn't have mention it in my blog? I dunno...I know you love zj and he also love you, I'm glad that he accept who you are not because of any other reason...

I think he mean childish is because whenever he talk to you, you keep playing with his shoeslace and play with his ear ba... I wanted to told you because I seriously dun wan you to hate him or what... But I realise I said the wrong things out again... Its not your fault to hate him but I just dun wan it to be like this... I didn't tht that the friendship I bring up end up was vanished in my own hand... Maybe I shouldnt start the conversation... If you wanna share what you are thinking, do feel so... Take care...

RegardsSumei

Another email

su mei, I do not feel angry that u don't want to tell me more about the past or mention anything about the past. It's your choice and u are right, its in the past and we shall not be bothered by it anymore by mentioning it. I am sorry if i made a big fuss out of it.

You didn't made the wrong choice by telling me, i appreciate it alot.. Really.. I will make the same mistake twice now that i am with ZJ. Thinking back, i am childish at that time.. Teling me about the childish part didn't make me hate sufyan more, it does not make any difference because he no longer play a part in my life. Sometimes i wonder, if we are still keeping in contact, as in like friends, maybe the hate will be neutralized.

Sufyan might be at fault, but only at my point of view. I still couldn't put myself in his position to think what he is going through at that time. I also made this decision myself and i can't blamed anyone else but myself. And of cos, i made a serious mistake too.. I am in no position to say who is right or who is wrong also.

And about your blog, u dun have to blame yourself for blogging it cause i would have ask u about the past even if i didn't read your blog. And seriously, i wasn't really bothered by it. I will, if i was the sharon in the past. BUt now, NOPE, it doesn't affect me at all. So dun worry k? It's your blog, u are free to write whatever u want and dun have to care about me. :)

OUR Friendship didn't vanished... I am still your friend and you are still my best friend whom i will share my problems with. I am glad that we started the conversation and believe me, i wasn't really affected by it. I think u are much more affected by it. Sorry!!! :(

Well, cheer up.. and i hope we can still be truthful to each other. We shall go out for tea some other time again.. :) coffee also can, up to you! heehee Goodnite! Take care and dun think too much!

Regards,Sharon