Thursday, November 08, 2007
First of all wanted to wish Tigger a Happy 21st birthday & may all his wishes come true...
Today went to parkway for a quick shop with xiao jing, ke ye , Jie & ke ye friends... Suppose to go cycling but end up going to fish house warming... Actually didn't thought of going de but darling called me and ask... That day he told me he was going so I agree to go but end up...
Yes he did go but by my force... I regret keep asking him and it make him feel that i'm forcing him in a indirectly way... He didn't know how to go and he lost his way and he walk for a long time to find the place... End up he wasn't happy at all, its all my fault isn't it?
I was so lost and feel so bad about it... I cried because I really hate myself, sorry tigger and fish, I cried infront of you two... Really sorry... Tigger, darling and me took bus to yishun then darling and me took mrt back to amk... Although he is still angry and tired but he make the effort to eat and watch movie together... In the cinema he was ok but after that his attitude change again...
I have been a lousy, not understanding girlfriend... I don't know what else I can do to make me happy... He did appologise for his attitude and I do understand its all my fault... It really make me think of is it worth for him to stay with me when I make him sad... Why is it happy moment always passes so fast and yet sad moment stay so long... Its my choice isn't it? Should I let him go? Have been asking this question seen long time but I just can't bare to leave him...
The time we spend... The things we do... The things we shared... The things we had gone through together... Its all memorise... Sorry for making you sad, angry, tired and everything... "If i'm good its all because of you, if you are bad, its all beacuse of me..." For the things I do, I just hope you will be happy... But I realise, its not the way I think... Let me think all over again and you shall make the decision... I'll respect what decision you make...
with loves; PiGlEt OnG KeLiNe...
9:29 PM
