Friday, September 28, 2007
Yesterday 27 September 2007, I was very pek chek with everything that happened... Hmmm... I just don't know why I can't stop myself from thinking... Wasn't it very funny? When she treated me like this but I actually feel so sad and uneasy and uncomfortable... Knowing that I shouldn't think about it but it just bother me alot...
Meeting up with pooh daddy first but actually he can't but I sound so... End up he still make his time to meet me a few hrs... After that accompany him wait bus then when home to wait for fish called... On my way home I feel so "Xin Ku" and just wanted to cry out... When I reach home, I just bring my hp and "Shi Xin Hui" cd go inside my bed room and listen while waiting for fish to call...
Waited for quite long, he also never call or sms so I sms him and ask whether he is still meeting me... He reply he is on the way along with darling... So I told him I wait for him at my blk void deck... I feel so down and I listen to my hp songs... It was a very cold night, just like my heart so cold... Waited for them quite some time and at least they come... We was quite quiet and didn't talk much... They did talk but just me not talking much cause I don't know what I'm feeling and just don't feel like talking...
Well they when home just before darling last train... I didn't when home straight and just sitting down there hoping that darling will come back and accompany me... He didn't and I just stand there and see him walking towards the mrt station... I when home disappointed and cried... I'm so sad I really don't know what's wrong with me that make me feel so uneasy and keep wanting to cry...
I stand at the living room looking outside the window... That was what I do whenever I cried... I received darling msg asking me am I ok, want a talk? I told him I don't know what to say and if he come back he will loss his last train... He told me its talking on the phone... End up I called him and have a chat... I was crying and I don't know what's really wrong with me and I don't know what to tell darling...
End up I make him sad too... Cause he wanted to know what happened to me but I just don't know what to tell him... He can't help me and it really make him sad... Was talking about her cause I felt that it might be her that's bothering me... So we talk about what she had done and she is lieing to everybody all this while just to make everybody thinks that she is innocent...
Whatever she had done, the truth will still be the truth... She will get whatever she had done in future? Hmmm well I really hope I don't involve anything with her again... I'm too disappointed with whatever she had done and said... I'm hurt each and everytime what she told me... Haiz... My heart is aching and I don't know what else could be done...
Today I'm still feeling quite down...Darling called and plan to meet if I'm free but I'm working so I can't meet... His hp no more credit le from now onwards can't call him le and won't be getting sms from him too... Was down because the way he speak make me worried... I don't know what happened to him or is he just tired but it really affect me alot... Darling there is nothing that I could done for you but I hope that you will feel better after the call...
with loves; PiGlEt OnG KeLiNe...
11:06 PM
