Just finishing reading her blog, I felt so cheated... Haiz... I know its not so easy for her to forget him and I didn't expect her to forget him so easily... But please at least be truthful to me... I hate this kind of feeling... I feel abit lost... I don't know whether should I believe her again...

She wrote, "Will hatred be the best solution?" and I asked her "Y will hatred be the best solution?" She said she don't know, its a question... Our conversation started this way... I ask her how is her love life been and is everything ok for her or she still feel the same. She told me nothing much, really... and don't have the time to think. She said she will share with me when she know how and what to say...

But now she wrote in her friendster blog, "Is hatred the only solution to forget him? Will i be able to forget if i dun contact him at all? Will it be that easy? " "I don't expect you to tell me alot but why can't you tell me what you wrote in your blog?"

Am I being too foolish to believe her again and again? I told myself I don't want to lose this friend and this is our fate to be friend, there might not be 來世 and I really treasure this friendship... But end up...

How can I really keep trusting her after one lie to another lie? Questions pop out my mind,"Are you afraid after you told me your feeling, i will keep thinking?" Or "Are you afraid I will be worried?" Or "Are you trying not to tell me all this at all?"

Argh I really don't know, I seem to have lost faith in you... It's not the first time you are not being honest and I have prepare myself to know the true by myself... But the feeling is undecrible and suddenly feel so scare and disappointed... The choice is your's, it's up to you to decide... I can't help it anymore...

Thanks to tigger for telling me to highlight and see all this, if not I will forever be cheated... And I really see her truth self and the bad part of human being...I need time to take it... Think I'm not going to meet her until I come back from my holiday which will be 28 May... I want to be MIA... So sad... Really feel so hurt... Spolit my day and now can't control the tears from rolling down my cheek...

Suddenly feel so emotional... Can't I give her the time? Why is it everytime I have to think till so complicated? She just simply don't know how she is feeling also what! Can I just stop all this nonsences?

Was thinking back if I never be with him will we at least be more truthful to each other? I might not get hurt and I might not hurt the both of them... So over all who's the one should be blame? It's not her... It should be me...