Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm kinda sick & tired of all this happening but i know its no point to avoid it... Maybe like what pooh bear said, one day she might understand.... But i think its harder cos i told her alot of time le but end up still the same old problems... If i really don't treasure you as my best friend or care for you or sms you, i won't even want to keep in contact with you lor... And i wouldn't have let you hurt me again and again... Do you really know how painful it is to be hurt by someone so dear to you especially your best friend? What do you really understand the meaning of friends?
Does it really matter that the three of you put the picture we last taken and i didn't put? Maybe i really wasn't good enough ba... Can i really take a long long rest? Its been tiring all this while, some of you understand how it feel but some don't... Anyway i don't expect anyone of you to understand how i feel, maybe this is what i should learn... It's kinda sad that pooh bear wrote that in his friendster blog but i can't say anything but sorry to you if you are reading... Really Very SORRY...
Dont't know what to say but just feel so sad, heartbreaking, helpless and etc... Mummy if all this while you didn't left me, will i still be like this? I didn't expect you to leave me so fast and there is alot of things i wanted to repay you but you didn't give me this chance... You left me with alot of things which i have to settle myself and feeling helpless... I know only i can help myself and that's the only way for me to grow up... There's alot of things to do and it seem that i can't finish all...
Mummy i just felt that i can't take it anymore and all i know is cry... I can't tell jie jie what's happening, its seem something is lost between us... I use to like to stay at home, but after u left, i'm afraid to be alone... I don't want to be alone again and i'm afraid of losing anyone that is so dear to me whom i love... That's why i use all ways to make him stay even its not my fault... It might be foolish but i'm not as strong as you guys think...
Like what Miss Chong said about me, i can't always give and didn't take... I have to fight for my own happiness and wants... Its not i don't want to take, all i have given out is what i think i will want if i'm the othe parties...
All in all i can only blame myself for everything... Sorry to everyone that i have hurt or make you sad...
with loves; PiGlEt OnG KeLiNe...
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